Checking Up
Thick snow, I fall down in it slow
I retreat to its pillow
Snot gets smudged
Swept on my cheek
No tissue, especially not you
You tell me that you're not
Checking up on me
But I am the one you think of when
You think about the things
You've done wrong before
In your life
You call me when you're out on the road
You just met someone reminds you of me
And I'll appear in your shadows
And you'll say
I need
To think about the things
I want before I
Kiss your thick light
Goodbye
And all of our guilt
Is collectivized in ill written iPhone notes
And I do not want you to know
You are the one I think of when
I think about the things
That I've done wrong before
You are the one I think of when
I think about the things
That I've f**ked up before
In my life
