My Life Before My Eyes
I lie here waiting
For one of my sons to walk right through my door.
But no one's coming
Cause everyone I've loved is lost, I'm on my own.
My greatest fear is here
And I don't want to die alone.
I want my family,
They always said they needed me
But I need them more.
It's getting hard to breathe,
And I feel the cold.
And it's taking over.
[Chorus]
I see my friends and family,
And my boys are by my side.
Before it all went wrong,
Before the both of them had died.
And I will try
Just to go back to a time when I knew I had it all.
I'd give anything to have them here beside me,
But that'll never be, I'm all alone.
Dear god, how did this happen to me?
You left me with no purpose and left them both to bleed.
They killed my boy at home and the other overseas,
So now I'm left to rot alone and die in this hospital.
If they could both just be here now,
I'd let them know before I go I was so damn proud.
But they are never coming home,
So now I'm left to rot alone and die in this hospital.
Give it up surrender
Let it all subside there's no one by your side.
You'll never, you'll never win this battle within.
Your time has come, your body's going numb now give in.
[Chorus]
I see my friends and family,
And my boys are by my side.
Before it all went wrong,
Before the both of them had died.
And I will try
Just to go back to a time when I knew I had it all.
I'd give anything to have them here beside me,
But that'll never be, I'm all alone.
My skin goes cold as I'm barely breathing,
My body's done I've lost all control.
I want my sons right here beside me,
But now they're both gone, and I don't want to die alone.
I'm starting to feel my vitals failing,
I'm drifting away to the dark unknown.
Death sinks in as it overcomes me,
My greatest fear is here, I don't want to die alone.
As the last beat of my old heart subsides,
The doctors call the time, it looks like I've died alone.
